Bookworm
Posted by yeeween , Friday, March 19, 2010 4:28:00 PM
these days have been pretty satisfactory up to my standards.. been doing things i love doing.. which is mostly reading actually.. and just plain spending time with people.. only downside is that i dont have enough sleep.. i'm slowly regaining my need of late evening naps already.. if i dun take them i can fall asleep at 12am or so.. like yesterday, i fell asleep playing Flight Control (so kincheong oso can sleep =.= ) and then my planes keep colliding into each other but im far away in dreamland.. i dunno what my thumb pressed while my eyes closed, when i peeked at it via a moment of consciousness i was staring at wobbly icons x)
so i guess im not very emo anymore.. :) compared to late january.. just by being awake im depressed.. depressed at this.. and that.. every little thing that poked my nerves.. and then my sleep cycle went crazy.. and then im depressed by it.. i think i was depressed just by thought of myself being depressed.. sigh.
but not anymore~!
i smile more now.. i guess being in the dark so long made me realise just how exhilarating it is to be happy again and right now i just want to appreciate every moment i turn lame.. because i kinda noticed that im generally being happy when i start being lame.. i picture speech bubbles every time i see a milipede crawling up a wall, i make faces at passing cats, i skip when i think no ones looking, i smile in the shower and i laugh for longer now because it's real. :)
oh boy. remember what they say about whatever that goes up must come down?
sumtimes it makes me afraid of being too happy.. but no worries.. i think i tamed my paranoia.. I THINK.
oh and my birthday's coming up.. im being pretty anal about it.. not to mention that im confusing everybody and contradicting everything i say about the subject...HOW. im scared that i'd end up spending it alone and then regret not throwing sum random party just so the first day of my adulthood wont be so lonely.. Dx but we shall see.. :) to tell u the truth i kinda set aside this dress that im gonna wear adi muahaha!
i miss my sisterrrrrrrrr... :(
i wanna spend my birthday with my family also :(
oh oh oh that day i dragged my mum into Tiffany & Co so i could show her the Tiffany keys.. then she said they arent nice :( she said i should get a tiny tiny one.. on a very slender chain.. and then my sis said my mum should get a padlock instead of a key *insert sister's maniacal laugh*
i want a black one.. plastic; with open, lock, and open boot buttons.. and when u push either one, sumwhere... two bright headlights flash. nyehehe.
